原来我错了

I went back hometown to visit my grandfather. He is in hospital now.

Looking at my grandmother, I know she is sad, but still pretend to be ok and try to cheers us up. But I don't know what to say to made her feel better. The only thing I can do is just sit there and become a listener.

Looking at my grandfather lying on bed, I know he need help. But I don't know what to do to made him feel better. The only thing I can do is just sit there and accompany him for the whole day.

时间似流水，岁月不留人。转眼间，我的公公以经这么老了。
回想一下， 我也好像没好好的陪伴过他。突然间觉得自己很不孝顺。
以前，往往只会觉得最痛苦的是自己。原来我错了。

Law of suck

I always blame and complain that Happy Land suck, life suck, this suck, that suck, everything suck. I hate everyone because they made my life suck. I hate myself as well because I am making my life suck too.

But now I realise that maybe after all, nothing else suck. I see everything else suck because I suck. Or maybe nothing is suck at all, because I think everything suck, so they become suck. If I stop thinking everything else suck, then they will not suck. If I started to change my mindset and see everything in a possitive and optimistic way, nothing will suck. But I suck, I can't change my view so eassily. But one mindset and view is usually shape by the society and stuff around him or her. So does that mean that my mindset becomes suck because the society suck? But society consists of different individual that live together. So does that mean the society become suck because everyone in that society suck?

So now, if you think that your life suck. Think again, maybe your life don't suck at all. It is just that you suck and I suck as well because I am telling you the truth. We suck because we know our life suck and we don't do anything to correct it.

所谓"江山易改，本性难移". 如果价值观和行为习惯是这么容易改变，这句话就不会流传这么久啦.

Word count for SUCK : 27

Mr.Daily Horoscope Ep2

Mr.Daily Horoscope has successfully prove it once again! According to Mr.Daily Horoscope, one robot from my working place will leave and the working process for the factory will change totally.

Very well done, Mr.Daily Horoscope! But you make a slightly small mistake there. Not just one person is leaving due to the recent earthquake. But atleast three! Oh wait, I think the number won't stay as three because I see a chain effect here. The chain reaction haven't stop yet. Do I really care this time and help the mushroom factory to stop the chain reaction?

No, I give up already and don't fooking care. I am very sad the team is being destroy again. I am very sad most of the robots that work together with me will not be in the factory anymore soon. But I am happy that I see things clearly now. I am happy that I move myself back to a sucky reality. Maybe the reality don't suck, it is just that I suck. I am sorry friends, I can't help when you all need the help......

Genie King and Princess

This post is pure fictional. Nothing to do with my real life.
To understand what the hell is this. Please click here.

The mighty Genie King and the beautiful Genie Princess, from the magical Land of Faraway have finally escaped the clutches of their Evil Master after being held captive for a 1000 years. With the help of their trusty Genie Buddy, they are now flying away on their Magical Flying Carpet on a quest to redeem their souls for all the wicked deeds they were forced to do by the Evil Master!

"Woi, Mr.Jahdou send me here! So what you want?" ask Genie King.

Two weeks later......

"Err... after thinking for two weeks, I still don't know what I want. But can I have Genie Princess please?" ask CRT.

"WTF are you talking about?! Genie Princess is mine! If you ask that one more time, I am gonna turn you into piece of useless junk!" said Genie King.

"Yalah, you tak handsome and no money. Give me free I also don't want." said Genie Princess.

"Ok then. Can I have an ice cream please? Ohh... and chocolate flavor please." ask CRT.

"WTF are you talking about again?! I posses such great power and you just ask for an ice cream?! What the hell?!" said Genie King.

"Chill dude... I didn't mean to hurt your feeling..." said CRT.

"Chill?! I give you one more chance. You going to ask something nice or you won't get anything from us at all!" said Genie King.

"I wish I can have a reset button to restart and reset my life." said CRT.

"I don't really understand what is that, but I will grant you that wish!" said Genie King.

"Ohh wait! Before that, you will need to follow the rules which are shown below then only your wish will come true." said Genie Princess.

The Rules
1. Write a short paragraph about your visit by the two Genies and include a link to the blog that passed on the Genie Symbol to you.
2. COPY the Rules and ENTIRE List below and post it on your blog.
3. List down your wish.
4. Place your name below the last name on the list and pass on the Genie Symbol to at least 5 other bloggers.

At last, I didn't get my wish because I didn't follow the rules properly. I didn't cut and paste the list of blogs here. I didn't tag anyone so that the Genie King and Genie Princess can continue their adventure to help other people.

The End.

Colour Blind

It is said that god give each of one us a gift. Most people said that I receive the gift of artistic skill which is design and drawing.

But maybe god forget that I am a colour blind CRT. How the hell one can become a good designer if he or she can't even see the colours properly? Luckily, design isn't just about colours. I just need to work extra hard compare with other designers who can differentiate colours easilly.

Over the years, I had found my own way to design even I can't see colours that well. But mistake is still being make, wrong colours is still being choose every once in a while. No one truly understand the problem I am facing. Everyone will just have fun talking about it.

"Wah... you are colour blind and can do design? Can u see what colour is this? And this? Haha..."

But I don't blame them, because I am having fun talking about it too! Hehe~! Atleast it is a good random topic to talk about.

To spice thing up even more, I don't have any diploma in art and design, but I do have a degree in Computer Science Software Engineering. Now that is so suck for a designer isn't it? Anyway, I am just a colour blind designer that live a colourless life as well.



Before you ask me what I saw from the image above, I will answer your question. I just saw two big dotted circle.

Pain Killer

Why I like to sketch, draw or paint? Because through sketching, drawing and painting...

I can temporally shift my focus and attention away from reality which suck most of the time.

I can temporally ease my pain and suffer which is cause by reality again.

I can temporally forget about all the problems in my life.

I can impress other people which make me feel slightly better.

I can improve my drawing skill.(Obviously)

Drawing, sketching, painting is just my personal pain killer for life. So what's yours?

People said

People said:
You need to take risk in order to succeed.

CRT said:
Yeah right! I will succeed in a more secure way.

People said:
You need to move out from your comfort zone in order to succeed.

CRT said:
Yeah right! Why the hell I need to move out from my comfort zone and suffer?! I will stay in my comfort zone and succeed.

People said:
You are a fooking stubborn CRT! You don't listen to other people advice!

CRT said:
Yeah right! I mean you are really right. My CRT head suffer from stubborn problem sometime, but I am trying to debug it now.

Big plan

I got some big plan for myself today.

Plan A
Escape from mushroom factory. Build my own cheese factory, make my own cheese. But need to wait and see how the Big Cheese react.

Plan B
Stay in mushroom factory. Wait till October, and accept offer from another factory. But need to wait gold coins being pump into this factory before they can offer me.

Plan C
Stay in mushroom factory. Keep on setting new longest earthquake survival record till mushroom factory collapse totally.

Plan D
Fook the mushroom factory. Go to sleep now and stop thinking.

Plan D sound interesting. I choose plan D. hehe

Earthquake

Seems like there will be another earthquake soon in mushroom factory. Everyone here is packing up and running for their life. This is not the first time earthquake strike mushroom factory. I had gone through similar earthquake a few times. At one point, I was the only survival in the mushroom factory!

The teamwork in mushroom factory is build up and destroy, build up and destroy again. This seems like an infinity loop to me. With this loop, the factory won't move anywhere further.

I feel quite sad, everyone is leaving. Oh well, seems like I will be holding the longest earthquake survival record again for sometime, or will I?

Time pass too fast

Another month passed, time pass too fast sometime.

Optimists feel happy because they had enjoy another month.
Pessimists feel unhappy because they had suffer another month.

Optimists feel happy because they had survive another month in their life.
Pessimists feel unhappy because they had one less month to live in in their life.

Am I optimists or pessimists?

I think I am just someone that think too much sometime.

The Big Cheese

I met the big cheese few weeks ago. The big cheese offer something very interesting to me and a friend. Whether the deal is seal or not, it seems like now I have an opportunity to stop helping other people cultivating their mushroom and start making my own cheese.

For 3 thousand years working in my current mushroom factory, I had receive a lot of interesting offers by other factories too. But I never accept them mainly due to one reason:

"I want to make nice cheese and don't want to work under anyone anymore."

Now there is an opportunity for me to make nice cheese and need not to work under anyone anymore, but I still hold back a bit. I seriously don't know why. It is hard to describe what I feel at the moment. scared, happy, confuse, uncertain, tired, lazy. I want to take this opportunity and break free from the chain, but I don't know what to do next.

Maybe god you can come to my dream tonight and tell me what is the next step.