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End of Chapter 07

2007-12-30T20:45:00.000-08:00

Time pass so fast, end of a year, end of a chapter.
A new year, a new chapter, a new life, a new blog.
blog.mclelun.com

Other people see a new year and say happy new year.
I see an ending and say time is not enough.

My Imaginary Friend

2007-12-14T08:17:00.000-08:00

Most of my robot friends had left the factory. I feel that don't have anyone in the mushroom factory can talk crap together. They are all are new robots that venture that into this so call dream job industry. They are just normal robots, I want to rant and talk crap with them, but can't.

Without anyone to talk crap. I made myself a new friend, a TV Head. He is my new imaginary friend. This TV will never betray me, he is a true friend. I can scold him and he will always remain the smiling face unless I give instruction to ask him to angry. Now can you understand why crazy people like to face at wall and scolding the wall? This is because the wall is their imaginary friend.

McDaddy

2007-12-14T07:37:00.000-08:00

I went to McDaddy to buy a burger for dinner today. After buying it, I start my long journey walking back to my dumpsite. Upon reaching my dumpsite, I open up the box cover and grab the burger. Hmm It feel something wrong. But nevermind, I just proceed to eat the burger.

OMGWTF!! The burger bun is hard and not fresh. It seems like the burger is made yesterday and left it overnight! WTF McDaddy?! You selling overnight burger to me. I am gonna sue you and make millions. When you are in bad luck, even the burger will bully you.

你这个死人头麦当包，卖我漏风的burger！

Insomnia?

2007-12-04T14:27:00.000-08:00

Looking at my PC clock at the lower right of the screen...
WOW!OMG!WTF! It is 6:28am now, I forget to sleep...
Because I was busy doing this 3 funny kid animation.

2 days later...

Looking at my PC clock at the lower right of the screen again...
WOW!OMG!WTF! It is 6:42am now, I forget to sleep again...
Because I lost myself in the online gaming world.

I don't think I got Insomnia. Insomnia is where one person can't sleep at all. My problem is I forget to sleep at night. I only sleep in morning and wake up at night. I think I am just becoming the old me, a zombie. During college, I was like this. But Hey! Who wasn't like this during college?

(BTW, I met robo-x2n in the Internet, he can't sleep because he got night shift work. Haha!)

The Miracle List

2007-12-04T08:00:00.000-08:00

Flipping through my small black organizer, I saw this to-do list I written down few months ago which I already forgot.

- Buy a super high tech PC.
- Apply a prepaid credit card.
- Register my website domain name.
- Make my own little website.
- Finish up some artworks which is half done.

and more random crappy to-do, lazy to type all here...

To my surprise, I actually finish most of the thing from this to-do list within this two/three weeks. I don't even constantly checking it and see what I haven't done, then force myself to do it. I just survive day by day and after a while, I notice I had finish most of the work in the to-do list. Wow man! Now I am going to call my to-do list "the miracle list", then write...

- Earn my first million gold coins ASAP

This is a dream job!

2007-12-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

This is a dream job! Everyone want to work in this industry!
Yeah, only the industry is interesting, but not so about the job.

This is a dream job! Everyone want this job!
Yeah, but now many robots are leaving the factory. Only noobs is joining in. When they discover this job don't really fit into their dream job category, they will start to leave as well.

This is a dream job! We always do interesting work!
Only sometime. But I think everyone can do interesting work on their free time as well.

This is a dream job! We give you full creative control!
The creative control is decide by mushroom client. We only had full creative control when we do our own stuff.

To tell you the truth, most robots' dream job are something like this
- good paid
- easy work
- flexible working hour
- have lots of free time to do own stuff

Now, whose dream job are not like this? This is everyone dream job. One of my best pal get this type of job recently. He live a happier life now and never regret. Dream job don't torture people mentally. Dream job is a relax job with good paid. Call me slacker if you want.

PS: This post is special request by robo-x2n :D

Keep Counting

2007-12-01T10:59:00.000-08:00

I am wasting time again, I made some counters.

This is how long I had survive.

This is how long I had join Mushroom Factory.

This is how long I had split personality.

Let's Smoke

2007-12-01T03:24:00.001-08:00

You smoke because you want to relieve stress.
He smoke because he thought it is cool.
They smoke because they are addicted to it.
I am going to smoke because I want to kill myself slowly :D

Joking only, I don't want to die when I still have so many incomplete objectives, plans, task

My new wife

2007-11-26T06:29:00.000-08:00

"Dude, how your new wife? man.." ask robo no1.

"Huh? My new wife?" ask CRT.

"Yeah, your new wife. The one you play games with, you work together with." said robo no1.

"Ohh, ya. My new wife is great! man... She is so good and perform so well. I love her so much now." said CRT.

"So how about your old wife?" ask robo no1.

"My old wife is good too, but recently she had a lot of problems, so I decide to give her to my mum." said CRT.

WAIT! Before anyone is offended or angry. Meet my new "wife"... my new PC...

Work Work Work

2007-11-24T00:09:00.000-08:00

Monday, Work~!
Tuesday, Work~!
Wednesday, Work~!
Thursday, Work~!
Friday, Work~!
Saturday, Today, OMG! I am working again~!
Sunday, Tomorrow I am going to hide in hometown and not doing any work~!

Creating Good Karma

2007-11-23T20:14:00.001-08:00

Do you create good karma?

or in a more simple way...

Do you do good things for others?
Do you help others?

To tell you the truth, I am a fook up CRT. I don't usually help others because I am a selfish and cold hearted CRT.But two days ago...

While I was having lunch with my fellow robots from mushroom factory, this one arm Jedi came to us and ask for donation. He want some gold coins so he can buy a robotic arm for himself as a Christmas present.

Now, what will you do if you are in a situation like this? I assume most people will keep quiet or ask the Jedi to go away. Yeah, I was like that too most of the time. But during that time, I actually donate two gold coins for him. I don't know why I did that, but the one arm Jedi is damn happy and thankful. Maybe he use the "Force" on me and make me donate to him?

Later in that day while I was waiting the U73 spacebus to get back to my dumpsite, I saw a blind Jedi trying to find a spacebus to go home as well. But he is blind, he can't see which spacebus he should hop on to. His Jedi "Force" can't help him too. So I decided to help this poor blind Jedi as well.

So in the first time of my life, I actually did two good things to random people in one day. I don't know why I did that, maybe I did it with evil intention. Like hoping the good karma will rewards me in sometime soon?

Not enough time

2007-11-18T09:51:00.001-08:00

1:51am midnight, my CRT head is low on battery but I can't rest and recharge my battery. So many works to do, but I have so little time.

Is it because...

There are too much works to do?
24 hours is not enough for me?
I got bad time management or planning?
I am lazy?
I waste too much time doing random things...

like blogging...?

Eat bread

2007-11-17T09:13:00.000-08:00

Bread will be my main meal for this and next month because I bought a new High tech computer. In order to save some gold coins, I decide to eat more bread. Too bad, because of my mistake, I make someone eat bread this month as well. So sorry.

Big plan again

2007-11-13T08:06:00.000-08:00

Factory X had call me again this afternoon. They ask me to reconsider their offer to join their factory. Few months back, I reject their offer and they got quite mad about it. But now they ask me again nicely. This is not a random crappy offer, as they are willing to paid 1000 gold coins more of what I am getting now. At the same time, I was hoping to start my own cheese factory too. But if I join factory X, I am quite sure I won't have anymore time for myself to make my own cheese. So how? I don't know how but I manage to come up with a few big plans again.

Plan A
Stay in mushroom factory, and start my own cheese factory slowly.

Plan B
Escape from mushroom factory, and start my own cheese factory instantly.

Plan C
Escape from mushroom factory, and join factory X. If I join factory X, I won't have much time for myself to start my cheese factory.

Plan D
Sleep now, and will ask god what is the next step in my dream.

As usual, I choose plan D again because it is always the best plan.

Ice eating event

2007-11-10T06:54:00.000-08:00

Just now, I went to meet the big cheese with a friend to discuss about building the cheese factory. Discussion go on for a while, then we decide to participate this ice eating event organize by the big cheese. Just to show our support for the big cheese.

Both of us didn't won in the competition because all other contestant is too dasyat. Those contestant is able to consume four to five cup of ice under two minutes! How is that possible?! I just consume one cup of ice and my CRT's capacitors are starting to freeze and stop functioning properly.

Well, but I didn't lose everything. During the lucky draw session, I win a hamper. Since a very long time, I had won something from lucky draw. Today I must be damn lucky or maybe the big cheese purposely let me win.

Cleaning Shit

2007-11-06T02:22:00.000-08:00

I am cleaning shit again.

Someone shit and run away. Then expect other people to clean up the shit for him. It is his own shit, he should be much more responsible and clean up his own shit. But he decide to shit then go dissapear. He should atleast give some instruction on how to clean his shit. Not just shit, then go missing in action.

One thing I know, I won't be doing this shit cleaning task for long anymore. If he shit and go dissapear again next time. I will happily dissapear as well and let the shit pile up on him.

Not a Good Day

2007-11-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

Monday morning, sleeping happily. I thought everything is turning to be better finally. I am ready to start a few projects and execute a few plans which I always want to do.

But this is not the case. Sucky reality wakes me up once again...
It is 5am in the morning, I sprained my ankle while I was sleeping. Then, the communication device rang with a bad news. My grandfather is not doing well, so my parents had to rush back to hometown.

Both of my brothers is not anywhere near Happy Land, so they cant go back to hometown. For me, I should have went back and meet my grandfather. But thanks to the mushroom king, I can't go back. I need to go to mushroom factory and clean up that pile of shit even I had a sprained ankle.

Monday evening, after cleaning up most of the shit in mushroom factory. I thought I still have time to meet my grandfather in the following few days. Maybe not.

This morning, the communication device rang with a terrible news. I don't have any more chance to meet my grandfather. Everything is already too late. There are still some shit in the mushroom factory, but I can't go to the factory and clean it up. But the mushroom king is still missing in action. So I had plug myself into the Internet and help cleaning up the shit virtually from a far.

Today is not a good day for me.

ps: Blogging halfway, the Internet connection screw up for few hours. Confirm today is not a good day for me...

Eat Sleep Work Loop

2007-11-01T09:41:00.000-07:00

Another month pass. Soon, another year will pass too. I was thinking about what I had done in the pass two years. Seriously, I am supprise that I actually didn't do anything much.

I can't remember clearly what I had done during 2005 and 2006. The only thing I remember is I just eat, sleep, work, eat, sleep, work (loop) during that time. I feel that I wasted two years in my life.

I was a young CRT boy with all the big plans. But where is all my big plan now? As I grow older, it seems that I had forget all my plans and I just eat, sleep, work everyday.

2007 seems to be a better year. Atleast I am earning slightly more gold coins now. I am slightly optimistic and happier this year. But still, where is all my big plans? Another year is wasted I guess.

2008 is coming soon, I should start to make good use of my time instead of falling back into the eat, sleep, work loop again. I need to start doing what I always want to do. I need to execute a few plans that I had in my mind for so long already.

Burst Mode Working

2007-10-27T22:56:00.000-07:00

What is your working style? Do you work hard most the time? Or you work slowly most of the time? Or you will only work hard if the task is important? Or you are one of those “Play hard and work hard” people?

For me, I will push myself so hard that I forget to rest for a period of time.After that, I will rest so much until most creature in Happy Land start calling me slacker. Robo no1 told me this is the "Burst Mode" working style.

Basically there are two phase in this "Burst Mode" working style, which are the "Burst" phase and the "Empty" phase. Let say there is a project which duration is about four weeks. Instead of planning out the task well over the project timeline, I will complete all the task in a very short time frame. After "bursting" all my energy on completing the project, I will just enter the "Empty" phase which I start to rest. Too bad, once I enter the "Empty", I tend to become lazy and unmotivated to work again.

For the last two months, I had been in the "Empty" phase and slowdown quite abit. Many tasks left undone. Many freelance work had been turn down by me as well. I know some of my colleagues and friends can feel that too because we had some projects that suppose to work together. Due to my laziness, it is either never complete or never start at all! Sorry man... Just give me few more days to recharge my battery and I am ready to work again.

I am happy

2007-10-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

Ok enough of sad post. Let's talk about something happy.

I am happy that I am still alive yeah~ yeah~
I am happy that I still have a job yeah~ yeah~
I am happy that I still have my family with me yeah~ yeah~
I am happy that I still have friends yeah~ yeah~
I am happy that I can still pretend to be happy yeah~ yeah~
I am happy that after I pretend to be happy, I really feel slightly better yeah~ yeah~

Depression Virus

2007-10-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

Suppose to go out this morning, but I feel very sad and down. So I decide to hide in my dumpsite. Why am I so sad? I don't know. Maybe I know the answer but just pretending don't know.

I persistently feel sad, anxious, empty, worthless, helpless, hopeless, pessimism, fatigue, and slowdown. This is all the signs and symptoms for depression incase you don't know. So am I suffering from depression problem? I don't know. But I do know I have this same feeling for so many years and it seem that it won’t leave me so easily. It just come and go from time to time. Maybe my CRT head is infected with depression virus. Maybe I should try to use an anti-virus to fix the problem, so I can live a happier life after that.

But why should I try to cure my depressed personality if I can direct it to a proper channel and make great use of it? Just like robo no1 told me before.

"Most great artist and musician suffer from depression problem as well. But they channel their depressed feeling into producing a masterpiece of music or artwork"

Why most great artist will suffer from depression? Is it creativity must come together with depressed personality? If yes, is creatitivity a gift or curse? I have so many questions, but all is not important now. I just need to accept who am I myself. Accept the fact that I might have some depression problem and try to make good use of it instead of resisting it. I am strange isn't it?

Chain reaction

2007-10-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

Just like I predict earlier, the resignation chain reaction have not stop yet. Today, two more robots from mushroom factory decide to break themself free and escape. Now, they just wait for the correct time to throw the resignation bomb at mushroom king. After that, they should be able to live happily in reality and stop dreaming about growing the biggest mushroom.

It is quite hard to explain how I feel at the moment. So many big mushroom projects coming in but the team is shrinking each day. I am abit lost and blur. I feel like want to escape as well.

I dont have this and that

2007-10-13T01:56:00.000-07:00

I don't have my own lifepod,
I don't have my own spaceship,
I don't have this,
I don't have that,
I don't have ......
(the list goes own)

The only thing I have is nothing.
I have nothing.

Many people like to waste their time thinking about what they don't have.
And seem like not not many people using their time appreciate what they have now.

This include me as well. We all suck. Maybe we should slow ourself down, turnback and look around, start to appreciate what we have now, stop chasing blindly and mindlessly at what we don't have.

I think I lost something.

2007-10-09T05:54:00.000-07:00

I think I lost something.

Everytime went back to mushroom factory,
I will be doing routine stupid task, but not interesting work.
I lost passion for my work.

Everytime went back to dumpsite,
I will be doing random useless thing, but not freelance work.
I lost dedication for my work.

I think I lost my way.
I can't see my future.
I don't know where I am heading next.
I don't know what I am going to do next.
I can't see my path.
But I will be building my path.

Some formula

2007-10-07T00:24:00.000-07:00

I really can't believe that time pass so fast. Nearly two months had pass since I enter this fantasy world of blogging. Thinking back of what I had done in previous two months, I notice that I haven't done anything usefull in my life. Let's do a little bit of comparison between me and one of the ex-mushroom factory robot. then you will know why.

My skill sets still stop at the same level.
His skill sets had advance to the next level.

Formula:
Better skill sets = Better job = Better paid

I am still doing the same boring and stupid task everyday.
He done so many interesting projects in this two months.

Formula:
Interesting Project = Better portfolio = Better job = Better paid

I still stuck in the same factory and getting the same salary.
He change his job again and get super salary from it.

Formula:
Change job = Better job = Better paid

But there is one issue,
He said he is very stressfull during this two months because of the workload. Even he is making more money now, but is it worth it? I can't answer for him, but I think in the long run, it will be still worth it.

For me, I am slighly happier in this two months because I am lazy to do freelance and I try to rest as much as I can. I am doing this because I am recharging my battery so I can go fullforce again soon in my work.

Formula:
Better paid = More work = Stress

Ofcourse this is not always the case. I believe everyone is looking for an interesting and enjoyable job with good paid.

Cilaka lu!

2007-10-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

Today, me and my friends in mushroom factory was talking about this particular robot codename AT, which left the factory recently. Although I don't really like him when he baru join the factory. But after he throw his resignation bomb at mushroom king. I found out that he is actually not that bad. Most importantly he left some good memories and jokes for the factory, which is his strange laughter and quote.

"Hehehehehe..... Cilaka lu!"

This particular robot's laughter sound so evil and funny that when ever he produce that killing sound wave, I just can't stop laughing. Even now, if I use my CRT head's processing power to imagine his strange laughter, I will still laugh out loud. For example, just now while I was taking the U73 spacebus back to my dumpsite. I suddenly thought about his strange laughter, and I nearly laugh out inside the spacebus. I don't know whether it is my good imagination power or I already become crazy. I think I must be crazy.

原来我错了

2007-09-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

I went back hometown to visit my grandfather. He is in hospital now.

Looking at my grandmother, I know she is sad, but still pretend to be ok and try to cheers us up. But I don't know what to say to made her feel better. The only thing I can do is just sit there and become a listener.

Looking at my grandfather lying on bed, I know he need help. But I don't know what to do to made him feel better. The only thing I can do is just sit there and accompany him for the whole day.

时间似流水，岁月不留人。转眼间，我的公公以经这么老了。
回想一下，我也好像没好好的陪伴过他。突然间觉得自己很不孝顺。
以前，往往只会觉得最痛苦的是自己。原来我错了。

Law of suck

2007-09-28T17:47:00.000-07:00

I always blame and complain that Happy Land suck, life suck, this suck, that suck, everything suck. I hate everyone because they made my life suck. I hate myself as well because I am making my life suck too.

But now I realise that maybe after all, nothing else suck. I see everything else suck because I suck. Or maybe nothing is suck at all, because I think everything suck, so they become suck. If I stop thinking everything else suck, then they will not suck. If I started to change my mindset and see everything in a possitive and optimistic way, nothing will suck. But I suck, I can't change my view so eassily. But one mindset and view is usually shape by the society and stuff around him or her. So does that mean that my mindset becomes suck because the society suck? But society consists of different individual that live together. So does that mean the society become suck because everyone in that society suck?

So now, if you think that your life suck. Think again, maybe your life don't suck at all. It is just that you suck and I suck as well because I am telling you the truth. We suck because we know our life suck and we don't do anything to correct it.

所谓"江山易改，本性难移". 如果价值观和行为习惯是这么容易改变，这句话就不会流传这么久啦.

Word count for SUCK : 27

Mr.Daily Horoscope Ep2

2007-09-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

Mr.Daily Horoscope has successfully prove it once again! According to Mr.Daily Horoscope, one robot from my working place will leave and the working process for the factory will change totally.

Very well done, Mr.Daily Horoscope! But you make a slightly small mistake there. Not just one person is leaving due to the recent earthquake. But atleast three! Oh wait, I think the number won't stay as three because I see a chain effect here. The chain reaction haven't stop yet. Do I really care this time and help the mushroom factory to stop the chain reaction?

No, I give up already and don't fooking care. I am very sad the team is being destroy again. I am very sad most of the robots that work together with me will not be in the factory anymore soon. But I am happy that I see things clearly now. I am happy that I move myself back to a sucky reality. Maybe the reality don't suck, it is just that I suck. I am sorry friends, I can't help when you all need the help......

Genie King and Princess

2007-09-26T09:10:00.000-07:00

This post is pure fictional. Nothing to do with my real life.
To understand what the hell is this. Please click here.

The mighty Genie King and the beautiful Genie Princess, from the magical Land of Faraway have finally escaped the clutches of their Evil Master after being held captive for a 1000 years. With the help of their trusty Genie Buddy, they are now flying away on their Magical Flying Carpet on a quest to redeem their souls for all the wicked deeds they were forced to do by the Evil Master!

"Woi, Mr.Jahdou send me here! So what you want?" ask Genie King.

Two weeks later......

"Err... after thinking for two weeks, I still don't know what I want. But can I have Genie Princess please?" ask CRT.

"WTF are you talking about?! Genie Princess is mine! If you ask that one more time, I am gonna turn you into piece of useless junk!" said Genie King.

"Yalah, you tak handsome and no money. Give me free I also don't want." said Genie Princess.

"Ok then. Can I have an ice cream please? Ohh... and chocolate flavor please." ask CRT.

"WTF are you talking about again?! I posses such great power and you just ask for an ice cream?! What the hell?!" said Genie King.

"Chill dude... I didn't mean to hurt your feeling..." said CRT.

"Chill?! I give you one more chance. You going to ask something nice or you won't get anything from us at all!" said Genie King.

"I wish I can have a reset button to restart and reset my life." said CRT.

"I don't really understand what is that, but I will grant you that wish!" said Genie King.

"Ohh wait! Before that, you will need to follow the rules which are shown below then only your wish will come true." said Genie Princess.

The Rules
1. Write a short paragraph about your visit by the two Genies and include a link to the blog that passed on the Genie Symbol to you.
2. COPY the Rules and ENTIRE List below and post it on your blog.
3. List down your wish.
4. Place your name below the last name on the list and pass on the Genie Symbol to at least 5 other bloggers.

At last, I didn't get my wish because I didn't follow the rules properly. I didn't cut and paste the list of blogs here. I didn't tag anyone so that the Genie King and Genie Princess can continue their adventure to help other people.

The End.

Colour Blind

2007-09-23T01:00:00.000-07:00

It is said that god give each of one us a gift. Most people said that I receive the gift of artistic skill which is design and drawing.

But maybe god forget that I am a colour blind CRT. How the hell one can become a good designer if he or she can't even see the colours properly? Luckily, design isn't just about colours. I just need to work extra hard compare with other designers who can differentiate colours easilly.

Over the years, I had found my own way to design even I can't see colours that well. But mistake is still being make, wrong colours is still being choose every once in a while. No one truly understand the problem I am facing. Everyone will just have fun talking about it.

"Wah... you are colour blind and can do design? Can u see what colour is this? And this? Haha..."

But I don't blame them, because I am having fun talking about it too! Hehe~! Atleast it is a good random topic to talk about.

To spice thing up even more, I don't have any diploma in art and design, but I do have a degree in Computer Science Software Engineering. Now that is so suck for a designer isn't it? Anyway, I am just a colour blind designer that live a colourless life as well.

Before you ask me what I saw from the image above, I will answer your question. I just saw two big dotted circle.

Pain Killer

2007-09-23T00:18:00.001-07:00

Why I like to sketch, draw or paint? Because through sketching, drawing and painting...

I can temporally shift my focus and attention away from reality which suck most of the time.

I can temporally ease my pain and suffer which is cause by reality again.

I can temporally forget about all the problems in my life.

I can impress other people which make me feel slightly better.

I can improve my drawing skill.(Obviously)

Drawing, sketching, painting is just my personal pain killer for life. So what's yours?

People said

2007-09-21T10:03:00.000-07:00

People said:
You need to take risk in order to succeed.

CRT said:
Yeah right! I will succeed in a more secure way.

People said:
You need to move out from your comfort zone in order to succeed.

CRT said:
Yeah right! Why the hell I need to move out from my comfort zone and suffer?! I will stay in my comfort zone and succeed.

People said:
You are a fooking stubborn CRT! You don't listen to other people advice!

CRT said:
Yeah right! I mean you are really right. My CRT head suffer from stubborn problem sometime, but I am trying to debug it now.

Big plan

2007-09-17T06:52:00.001-07:00

I got some big plan for myself today.

Plan A
Escape from mushroom factory. Build my own cheese factory, make my own cheese. But need to wait and see how the Big Cheese react.

Plan B
Stay in mushroom factory. Wait till October, and accept offer from another factory. But need to wait gold coins being pump into this factory before they can offer me.

Plan C
Stay in mushroom factory. Keep on setting new longest earthquake survival record till mushroom factory collapse totally.

Plan D
Fook the mushroom factory. Go to sleep now and stop thinking.

Plan D sound interesting. I choose plan D. hehe

Earthquake

2007-09-12T20:55:00.000-07:00

Seems like there will be another earthquake soon in mushroom factory. Everyone here is packing up and running for their life. This is not the first time earthquake strike mushroom factory. I had gone through similar earthquake a few times. At one point, I was the only survival in the mushroom factory!

The teamwork in mushroom factory is build up and destroy, build up and destroy again. This seems like an infinity loop to me. With this loop, the factory won't move anywhere further.

I feel quite sad, everyone is leaving. Oh well, seems like I will be holding the longest earthquake survival record again for sometime, or will I?

Time pass too fast

2007-09-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

Another month passed, time pass too fast sometime.

Optimists feel happy because they had enjoy another month.
Pessimists feel unhappy because they had suffer another month.

Optimists feel happy because they had survive another month in their life.
Pessimists feel unhappy because they had one less month to live in in their life.

Am I optimists or pessimists?

I think I am just someone that think too much sometime.

The Big Cheese

2007-09-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

I met the big cheese few weeks ago. The big cheese offer something very interesting to me and a friend. Whether the deal is seal or not, it seems like now I have an opportunity to stop helping other people cultivating their mushroom and start making my own cheese.

For 3 thousand years working in my current mushroom factory, I had receive a lot of interesting offers by other factories too. But I never accept them mainly due to one reason:

"I want to make nice cheese and don't want to work under anyone anymore."

Now there is an opportunity for me to make nice cheese and need not to work under anyone anymore, but I still hold back a bit. I seriously don't know why. It is hard to describe what I feel at the moment. scared, happy, confuse, uncertain, tired, lazy. I want to take this opportunity and break free from the chain, but I don't know what to do next.

Maybe god you can come to my dream tonight and tell me what is the next step.

Observer and Participant

2007-08-31T06:57:00.000-07:00

Today, I talked with one of my best pal from mushroom factory, robo no1. We was talking about this "Observer and Participant" theory.

Observer and Participant
There are usually two ways to live your life.
As an observer or as a participant.

Observer will only observe and not participate.
Participant will only participate and not observe.

Observer learn through observation.
Participant learn through mistake.

Observer will observe all the possibilities, thus observer will have great intelligence.
Participant will participate all his or her decisions, thus participant will have great wisdom.

Observer occupies his or her time by observing, aware of every possible paths but won't get anywhere because observer don't participate.
Participant occupies his or her time by participating, unaware of other possible paths but won't get anywhere because participant don't observe.

When you choose to become an observer, you will only observe the success and failure of other participant.
When you choose to become a participant, you will feel the happiness and sadness of success and failure yourself.

copyright by lunism, robo no1. Don't steal please.

So which one you want to be? As an observer? Or as a participant?

I was an observer for such a long time, and I was never really happy with my life most of the time. I believe it will be the same if I choose to become a participant. So, I plan to take the third option, 50% observer 50% participant. (Contradicting with what I type earlier about there are two ways to live your life. haha)

Trying to find a balance between participant and observer now.

Happy Birthday Happy Land

2007-08-30T18:56:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Happy Land! You are 50 years old now and that's it. I don't really care because it doesn't affect me that much.

Just like previous years, I went back to my dumpsite alone, rejuvenate and recharge my life battery. Don't even want to wait till 12am and start screaming like crazy people. I admit I did that before, but maybe not this year.

Now, I need more energy and battery to survive. Too many task had been piling up in my to-do list, need to do something soon. I need a good sleep now and start a new day tomorrow.

Happy Birthday and good night! I am going to sleep mode.

Mr. Daily Horoscope

2007-08-26T01:55:00.000-07:00

Today I spend around 300 gold coins in TimeSquare. After a few hours, I decide to went home because the bag I bought is quite heavy and I can't walk around with it for too long. (Only my CRT head is big and strong, my arm is quite thin and weak)

When I get back to my dumpsite with spacebus U73. I sit down and relax myself, I took the newspaper and read through it. One particular section caught my attention, it was the Horoscope section.

According to Mr. Daily Horoscope

" It is better to just sit at home today. If you didn't think twice before you purchase anything today, you will regret later."

WTF?! After I bought some nice shirt and a nice beg?!! You say I will regret. WTF?! This is damn scary. Is it Mr. Daily Horoscope is so accurate that it already predict that I am going to do some shopping today?!! But I haven't regret yet! No...........

Well, this is not the first time the damn horoscope thing happen. Few years ago, I went to visit my grandma in Muar. I injured my big toe nail quite badly because of some nasty metal piece hiding in a lovely grass field. As I went back to my grandma house and read the same horoscope section of the same newspaper.

Mr. Daily Horoscope said

"It is better just sit at home today, else you might injured your feet badly, especially your toe"

That time, I was "WTF" as well. I hate you Mr.Horoscope, bad things you told always happen. Good things never happen...

Alcoholic Fuel

2007-08-24T21:38:00.000-07:00

It had been a long time since I fill my CRT head with alcaholic fuel. Well, the last beer I drank was root beer. (Ha~ Ha~, not funny)

Anyway, I drank 3 cup of alcohol substance yesterday night. Just 3 cup only! And my CRT head starting to show signs and symptoms of CRT malfunction.

Conclusion, I had successfully destroy some capacitor in my CRT head, which is essenstial to my daily task for producing creative work.

Zombies in Happy land

2007-08-24T19:21:00.000-07:00

There are zombies everywhere in this Happy land.
Infact, I was a zombie CRT for around two years!

Why? Because of evil MMORPG.

MMORPG will suck away the victims' soul and slowly turn them into zombies.

MMORPG zombies sit infront of the computer 24/7 do nothing but just moving their fingers.

MMORPG shrink the social circle of it victim so that zombies only hang around with other zombies in the virtual world.

MMORPG zombies are most active during night and sleep during morning. If a zombie just happens to go out from his house during morning, he will feel that the hot sunlight is piercing and burning through his skin.

MMORPG zombies will also try to zombify normal living creatures around them. How many times your friend keep on telling you that this particular MMORPG is cool and want you to join in the party? How many times you saw a boy friend forcing his girl friend to play MMORPG together in cyber cafe? :)

Of course, one can say that this is all about self-control or discipline. But we are all just normal living creatures, how many discipline can one have? More over, playing MMORPG is not a big sin. So, a lot of people will be like

"Fook it, let just play this for now."

For me, I will think twice because I wasted two precious years in my life due to MMORPG.

44%

Mama's boy

2007-08-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

Through my observation in this Happy Land, I think alot of people missunderstood what Mama's boy mean. If your mama love you, take care of you. You love your mama and treat her nice so she is happy. You are not mama's boy. I am lazy explain what mama's boy is here. Just move your lazy finger abit and search what mama's boy means.

If you still feel ashamed when your mama call you infront of your friends, then I can assure that you are dumb and don't understand that your parent love you.

If your friend laugh at you when your mama call you, then your friend is as dumb as you.

If you think you are always spending time to accompany your mama, then wait till when she is not around. You will find out who actually accompany who all this time.

If you still think showing your love to your mama is a sign of mama's boy, then I am proud to be a mama's boy.

树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在

这句话传了几百年，是不会错的。
如果这句话"唔啱听",就来首周杰仑的歌吧!

听妈妈的话

Spaceship or lifepod

2007-08-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday while I was waiting for spacebus U73 to get back to my dumpsite. This strange Old Jedi came to me and start talking with me.

"Young guy, nowadays everything in life is so expensive. It is better to just use public transport and save some money" said Old Jedi.

"Yes, the only thing that haven't raise so much in life is basically the salary" said CRT.

"Raise? Raise already also no use. Everything is so expensive now. If you got your own spaceship, you need to pay for the petrol, parkings, spaceship loans." said Old Jedi.

"Ohh, somemore every year still need to pay for the spacetax!" said CRT

"Spacetax still ok ahh! Most expensive is when your spaceship spoil already like when the hyperspace engine not working anymore. Then you need to pay alot to repair it." said Old Jedi.

"That why sometimes I think is better to invest in a lifepod." said CRT

"Wow, you are damn smart despite you have a CRT head! Spaceship always a liability, but lifepod is an asset." said Old Jedi.

At this point, I want to reply the old Jedi but I didn't. From my view, If you take a bank loan to pay for the lifepod. As long as the loan is not clear, the lifepod is still a liability to you. You won't know one day you might run out of money and can't pay the lifepod loan. Then the bank will happily take your lovely lifepod away from you.

Short circuit in my CRT head

2007-08-17T19:05:00.000-07:00

Maybe due to some sort of electrical malfunction in my CRT head, I notice when I was alone and got nothing better to do, I will start talking to myself in my CRT head.

Other people in this Happy Land just day dream, they dream about nice thing and wish that it will happen soon. But I think about bad things, I worry about things that never happen and pray that it will never happen. I ask and answer question myself. I scold myself, I advice myself. Just like talking to some long lost friend. It is just that I don't speak out loud, else I would look like an insane CRT.

I have ask some of the living creatures in Happy Land whether am I crazy. One of them give me the best answer:

"You are unique, dude".

Mushroom Factory

2007-08-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

Now I will bring you to the Happy Land's mushroom factory. At here, I cultivate mushrooms together with some of my best pal, they are all robots. Meet my best pal here, robo no1. He don't have any feeling and always enjoy doing what he is not suppose to do daily. At here, we also always try to grow the biggest mushroom even we don't have enough resource and technology.

Friends

2007-08-17T06:22:00.000-07:00

I got alot of friends in this Happy Land.

10% of them are my close friends, those are the people that I really appreciate and I feel happy that I had know them. Just feel quite sad because I didn't met them earlier.

Another 20% of them are my normal friends, just normal friends. Meeting them everyday or from time to time.

Another 20% of them are my normal friends again but I didn't met for a long time mainly because they had move out from my social circle.

Most importantly, 50% of them are my so called "friends" that will backstab you when they feel like it. My poor CRT head cable had been pull by all these friends a few times. Life so wonderfull with all these friends isn't it?

Introduction?

2007-08-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

I am an unwanted CRT live in a dumpsite locate at a place far far away call Happy Land. This is my first blog post here and might be my last, sadly because I am running out of battery that keep my CRT head running. Nowaday, everyone just choose LCD instead or CRT. No one want CRT anymore. Life very suck ^___^